I am panicking.
It feels like exam day is coming real soon. No matter how prepared you are, you will still feel panicky. I am not so sure about you but that is what I am feeling right now.
Will the pain be bearable?
Will the labour be short?
Will I have the energy to push?
Will there be any complication?
Will my baby be perfect?
Can I have hubby beside me?
I know that the Government Hospital has stopped allowing husband to enter the labour room since after Clarissa’s year because they do not have enough manpower to conduct the class (they called it Kelas Peneman). This class is to prepare the dad-to-be and the mom-to-be on what to do and what not to do while in the labour room.
I gave birth to my son without hubby and I am confident that I can do it again without him this time. But today, I realised that during my son’s delivery, I have a Manipal student who is also a friend of mine coming in and out checking on me during my labour. So I have someone I know with me but she did not manage to be with me during the delivery because baby came out earlier as expected. But she was with me after that; cuddling my son while I rest.
Today, I desperately hope that they have resumed the class. I sent SMS to a friend working in the hospital to check it out for us but no reply. Requested hubby to give a call to his friend but he asked me to call him instead. That shows that he is not really interested to be with me. I am disappointed. 
So I shall go to the battle field ALONE this time around.
The weather today is extremely hot but I can’t hibernate in the air-cond room because my children are down with cough and cold. Playing and sleeping the air-cond room makes them cough even more.
So what I did was, let them “suffer” (they can’t sleep either) for an hour with the air-cond on full blast making the room cooler then I switched it off and all of them managed to get their afternoon nap with no sniffing and coughing. However, I only managed to doze off for an hour or so then I started perspiring.
Since I badly needed my nap because I slept at 3am and woke up at 7.30am today, I went to sleep in my room with the air-cond on for another hour.
If I am not pregnant, with the hot weather like this I will usually wash the bathrooms. A very good reason to play water and also get some work done in the house. Some people will head to shopping complexes but not me. I dread looking for parking under the hot scorching sun. Going for a swim is also out of the question because you will surely get sunburn unless there is indoor swimming pool which we does not have any here.
So what do you normally do when the weather is extremely hot?
The bag that will follow me to the hospital on the day of my delivery.
It contains…
1. 2 pairs of newborn shirt
2. 2 pairs of newborn socks
3. Diapers
4. Toilet Roll
5. Wet Tissue
6. 2 pairs of Sarong
7. 2 pairs of T-shirts
8. Maternity Bra and undies
9. Maternity Pads and normal pads
10. 2 Towels to wrap baby
11. 1 Face towel
12. 4 boxes of SoyBean Drink
13. A pair of socks for me
14. A Jacket
15. Kertas Cina (so that you don’t mess up the hospital bed with your blood during delivery. I am delivering in Government Hospital so we have to buy our own paper)
Things that are not in yet are…
1. A Mug
2. A Spoon
3. A Thermos
4. Toothbrush and toothpaste
5. The Pink Hospital Book
The packing was done during the weekend at 35 weeks pregnancy; the latest compared to my other 3. During my previous pregnancies, by 7 months my bag is ready!
I guess, am not so anxious anymore but still very fearful. 
My tummy is getting tighter and heavier.
My tummy pain is gone; I think baby was pressing at the wrong nerve.
I find it more difficult to fall asleep these days.
I really hope baby will come out at 38 weeks. I can’t bear to wait any longer.
I wonder what will my next baby looks like. I do pray that he or she would be blessed with healthy physical body and full of creativity. Most important of all is that he/she will grow up fulfilling God’s destiny for him/her. Talking about physical body, all my children have different physical shapes.
My eldest daughter follows her father built, big size Mesomorph type of body. Though not purely Mesomorph type of body she is definitely not Ectomorph type. Her younger sister is more of the Ectomorph type. My son does not follow his daddy built but mine, which is the Ectomorph type. Typical traits of an Ectomorph are the small “delicate” frame and bone structure, flat chest, lean muscle mass, high metabolism, thin, and find it hard to gain weight.
My hubby and eldest daughter are blessed with Mesomorph traits. A Mesomorph has a large bone structure, large muscles and a naturally athletic physique. Mesomorphs are the best body type for bodybuilding. They find it quite easy to gain and lose weight. I know that my hubby wants his son to have a mesomorph type of body so that he can be more of an athletic and play some “rough” game together. Maybe when Barnabas grows up, he would need from BSN Supplements (FitFuel.com) to build up his body. Whatever it is, I must make sure all of them stays healthy all the time.
I can’t sleep well last night due to tummy pain. I wish it was contraction pain then can go beranak (give birth) already. I turn to the left, pain; I turn to the right, pain; I lie on my back more painful.
This morning, I can hardly walk.
Did I eat the wrong food?
Did I sit too long?
Did I walk too much?
In times like this, I wish I am 38 weeks pregnant already then I know that baby will come out anytime soon.
In times like this, I wish I have a Hot Tub at home. Being so sneezy and grumpy, I am sure there is a certain kind of aromatherapy that would be able to help me calm down and stop sneezing. It is very irritating you know, having a runny nose and it itches so bad at time that I feel like plucking out my nose and soak it in whatever solution to kill all the germs that is causing the itchiness. I hate falling sick when I am pregnant because I can’t take any medicine.
In times like this, a hot tub will be heaven sent because my feet always aches when the weather is cold. This is one of the reasons I can’t sleep at night. I am blaming myself for this though because I did not take good care of myself during confinement after my previous deliveries. I did not follow strictly the do’s and dont’s during confinement. I bathe almost every day and washed my hair every other day. I even nap in the air-cond room! And I hardly wear any socks; during the day or during the night. With all the heaty food that is entering my body and the hot weather; I can’t bear following the do’s and dont’s.
Now, I am suffering from it! And I am not even 40 yet!
…and Grumpy too!
My Sneeziness (i don’t think such word exist in English. hah.) is due to a minor room renovation that hubby and the maid is into since Tuesday. They broke the wooden flooring in the maid’s room because certain parts are broken. Imagine the amount of dust that is flying in the house now! And my nose is super sensitive to dust. This weakens my immune system and I caught the flu bug from my eldest daughter and my son!
My Grumpiness is due to my itchy nose and also the internet connection. My internet connection is like the Chipsmore advertisement; Now You See It, Now You Don’t. If I don’t reply to your chat message or email, please pardon me ya. Not that I do not want too, I can’t! Grrrr…
I just called Streamyx again this morning and the same answer given; System Hang. My telephone line is buzzing too. I think I need to call Telekom to fix this. Hope it will help to cure Streamyx’s System Hang.
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Yes! I am lactating already even though baby is still living comfortably in my tummy.
Is this normal? I did not experience the same in my other 3 pregnancies.
One thing for sure, this baby of mine won’t go hungry sucking on empty breast on the day he is born.
You better be a hungry baby since Mommy’s milk is ready for you.
Looks like my plan to breastfeed exclusively might work this time around. 
I really hope that baby will latch for at least 2 years because I love to breastfeed unfortunately my other 3 wean off themselves at 8, 6 and 9 months respectively. Partly because I did not breastfeed exclusively so the milk supply was not enough for them.
When you are the only son in the house, the parent put very high expectation on you to take care of them and the family house. My brother is the only son but he married a different race that does not uphold this tradition from what I observed.
When my brother was working in Kuching, my father pestered him to come home expecting he will do his “Only Son” responsibility. The house will be his eventually. He came home but he did nothing except his wife’s wishes which are more towards her family. Being the only daughter in law, she did nothing too; the house is just like a hotel to her. My brother will be the one who does the cooking, washing, folding and even woke up in the wee hour to prepare milk for their daughters! These are an eyesore to both my parent.
The biggest blow that my parent had was they bought their own house and plan to move out once it is ready. They got a very good Mortgage Loan Rates from the local bank. Well, I told my parent to let go because their 3 daughters are living nearby; we will take care of them.
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For the past one week, I was worried looking at my tummy. It was smaller compared to my other pregnancies. So, I forced myself to eat a lil bit more and I drank Oat with milk for supper! FYI, I don’t like drinking milk.
Praise God I started to see my tummy growing bigger and baby’s Kung Fu stunt is getting stronger and sometimes it really hurts.
Today’s check-up was a smooth one; no hiccups. My urine is ok, blood pressure still on the lower side but still ok lar, baby heartbeat is normal but I dunno what’s my hemoglobin level coz they only measure it once a month.
And Yes! I gained weight; 900g in two weeks time (psst…I wore thicker pants today! hehe). Today I weigh at 59.3kg. I wonder whether I will touch 60kg by the time baby pops up. 
